RockSTaR

2010-09-16T14:16:00.000-07:00

And Hello ? Mind your own business ? Youre seriously not part of my life anymore. Like not at all.
Like oh come on , we dont text , we dont call , we dont chat , youre not my friend in facebook ,
we dont talk at all.
so basically , youre not part of my life anymore.
so you dont really have to give a shit in who im contacting with ,
or why im still contacting ,
or even have to bother yourself to actually THINK or TALK about me.
because youre just gonna commit your own sins.
like seriously.
if its smth good , like you care or anything , alhamdulillah.
but if youre gonna show attitude or just show me that face ,
or MAYBE talk behing my back ? who knows -.-
about whoever im in contact with ?
Go to hell with you and your mouth.
i dont pretty much care , but if youre gonna spread your attitudes and
spread all the disease , im gonna say straight to your face.
Youre no closer than better -.-
its easier, if you just mind your own businees.
think that you dont even know me ,
dont even know who the hell is Nur Azura Binte muhammad sani ,
because i dont need to be in your chapter of book if with you showing me those attitudes of yours,
like youre sucha clean lil child.
buzz off.
leave me in peace , i dont even bother you -.-

2010-09-14T11:27:00.000-07:00

thank you for listening to me (:

youve got your friend who gives you trouble.
and i have a friend who gives me heart ache too (:
they got sooooo close to you , and then they kick you just liddat.
Cantek lah.
heh.

maya , you can always find me when you need a friend (:

2010-08-24T10:12:00.000-07:00

wondering why , the sudden change.

2010-08-19T11:36:00.000-07:00

Its time.
I should realised that i am lucky to be given the second chance in life.
Im gonna do it ,
no one and nothing should stand in my way now.
i gotta believe in myself.
even if it means standing ALONE.
i dont fucking care already (:
Moving on , its time to make my life a better.
A meaning to it atleast.
after today.
everything will change (:
SAYE SUKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !! ^^

Maybe two is better than One.

2010-08-13T09:43:00.000-07:00

I know, ive been updating my blog without fail (:

Things have been said , but things are not getting better.
Like ive said before,
im so used to your presence, that im scared things would change.
And things are changing.
but ive gotta believe that its gonna be for temporary.
ive got to have some faith in you.
probably in times like this , its meant to show , who truly is there for you.
You know that ill always be.
Just be strong in whatever youre facing.
i know you are , definitely (:

The level of love towards each person around me is never Equal.
You might never know, I love you more than you thought i did.
but its alright, love is to do it sincerely and not really expect the same in return.

The moment i land my lips on your cheek ,
is when i told you , i love you.
and when its every day ,
its everyday i love you (:

seldom wants to everyday needs.

2010-08-12T10:06:00.000-07:00

its just not fair.
the feeling of being so sure that someone would be there,

but they just dont.
the feeling of that someone really loves you,
but they never seems like it.
the feeling of like youre living the world yourself.
and now my heart's broken like the bottles on the floor.
Just so down.
the feeling of people using me,
sucks to the corest core.
i dont need that anymore.
really.
Its best if you just be there and care,
or just Never.
i dont need shits, i dont need craps.
Its getting on my nerves already.
and now Im off.

sometimes i wish, all the people around you would walk off,
and youll finally see, that im actually there.
Tsk.

2010-08-11T05:56:00.000-07:00

And so , my 9th of aug 2010 was spent with 3 pain in the ass kids.
except one wasnt really a kid.
I was treated like An Adult which holds responsibilities in taking care of them.
in WHATEVER AND EVERYTHING they do (:
including buying medicines, buying meals, register bicycles,
make sure everyone was stick together.
Syafiqah said she wanted to meet me and Dowa ,
sadly as per normal , she went missing just like that .
awesome (:
we actually planned to watch the fireworks since we;re there at the beach ,
but thanks to our slow lil poke ( Alin ) who cycled twice slower than she ran ,
we didnt made it on time (:
and at the end of the day , she said this ,
" hmm agaknyer bunge api memang takde lah nari "
-.-
alright , still , i hope the three kids had an awesome fun time (:
that might be the last time for nurul before her PSLE,
and for me and dowa before our Olevels ?
and for alin before her streamings (:
wooots, feeling the heat already.

Best of luck , to you girls (:
to the girl who faints ,
to the girl who never knows the meaning of resting ,
to the girl who just wanna have fun .

2010-08-06T09:48:00.000-07:00

I think , imma gonna start moving in to the library next week.
or probably , just stay at home , and mug.
since coming monday is national day , i've got no plans at all ,
so i thought if there is no other plans ,
i shall stick with this plan of running away from everything ,
and focus.
and bulan ramadhan is coming , so i need to replace those times chewing things in my mouth,
with something better to do (:
there will be no class on monday , national day -.-
and i dont think i should go english class on wednesday ,
because its the first night of bulan ramadhan ,
and i want to eat with families at home and go teraweh (:
how nice.
however , will be going for science class on friday , weeeeee ~

so basically , ive concentrated more on chem that i totally neglected Physics.
chetttssssss !
concentrating on maths that i neglected english.
another chetttsssss !

*attension , tak perlu bace ni , pasal ni aku membebel marah diri sendiri , ty (: *
mati sudah sak aku.
skarang dah bloody august kau tau tak.
kimice, kau tak wake up skarang, tak take things seriously,
abe bile lagi ? bile result dah kluar ? bodoh pe ?
kimice. go and die. easier.

Yeah yeah i know, its fucking august.
my fucking oral is on the 26 of august.
and i still havent start reading , nyah.
* smack forehead.
ape nak jadi ngan aku.
okay enough, easy said then done anyways.
whatever.

now about hows life going onnnnnnnn.
awesome in some ways ? sucks in some ways also ?
heeeeeeeeeeee.
when it comes to people around me,
for now, i only need someone who will constantly remind me to study (:
because my family have other heavy things to handle,
and for now, im not really that important, sadly ):
i felt like an outsider.
nevermind, good thing. i dont need naggings for now.
but i need attension /:
Love , Care and Consern can really drive me far away from thinking about how ,
ive been neglected right now at home , really.
Yeap , i feel neglected.
but nahhh , nevermind.
i miss being pampered like a kid , i miss acting like a kid around.
i miss it.
and sometimes, i drop down, looking like a mess,
pretend like everythings alright.
sometimes, i coudnt really manage to hide it,
and i would try to quickly knock my head and start pretending to be fine back again (:
but i guess, if that someone knows me well enough, they'll realised.
sheesh.
i gotta be strong,
here at the end, trying to pretend.

* companion , please come ? ):

2010-08-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

i love the way you are right now.
i hope its not for temporary.

i hope youre not gonna make a fool outta me,

because you know i am here for you ,

just whenever.

i can be here and there, just about anytime for you,

but i hope youre not gonna take advantage of

the fact that i love being around you.

i can spend my days coming over, just to meet you,

even when my moods like shit, tired like shit,

everything can be back to fine,

the moment you pampered me like a kidd,

and you yourself acting like a kid.
whenever you just give me that smile,

you make everything worth while (:

but again , im scared.

scared that somedays, things would change.

scared that ill get carried away, and being used to you treating me

like im someone important in your life.

someone youre scared to lose , i hope.

just so scared.

2010-07-16T11:12:00.000-07:00

O's is SERIOUS SHIT around the corner, coming to the centre i guess.

Ok Fish , im crapping.
IM DAMN SCAREDDDDDDDD, TY (:
if you asked me , if im ready ,
ill say absolutely, NOT.
however, i am trying my best , and not wanting to face another same situation,

like how i did on 2009 ,
except this year will be infront of the computer ,

and not infront of a teacher, NYAH.

English , is NEUTRAL.
Maths , is TERRIBLE.

chem and physics is still on schedules.

GODDDDDDD.

i have alot alot alot alot alot to cover for maths and science.
and i have 2 freaking months left !!

i swear to GOD, i dont wanna fail once again this year.

I SWEARRRRRR.
people say, when you fail once, youll learn from your failures,

and do well the next time,

i aint see any positives yet, sadly.
once again, ive got to curse those private classes.

the moment i step in to class,
: oh have you paid $5 for the papers i printed ? -.-

FUCK.

dont you have any other thing going on your mind instead of collecting

money from people who needs help ? CB.

my schedules are laid out , and now all i need to do is CHIONGGGG AHHHH.
come on, i can do it.

not one of my family member can be there to remind me for now,
and i dont know until when,
since its like that, so ill have to deal with this on my own.
COME ON MANNNNNN (:

2010-07-01T09:20:00.000-07:00

Mum says , go to hell with what people want to do to you for now.
do good things to people ,
and never expect smth in return.
if they know you well enough ,
they know how to treat you.
Mum says, people who stays with you when youre having major things ,
they are the person you shall love.
people who walks away , are people who woudnt mind seeing you walk alone.
people like that dont love you.
when some things just happens out of random , youd know who those people are.
Mum says , people who forgives , has a big heart.
Mum says , people who makes enemies ,
stay away.
Mum says, no matter how hard it is , have faith in future.
and now i believe , that whatever things happens , it happens for a reason.
thank you Mum.

There are times when someone unknown would just step in your life,
and be someone in your life.
and there are times when they will just walk out at any point of time.
outta your life.
someone who walks in , and walks out ,
i dont know what to say.
but for someone who walks in and stay ,
for no matter what it takes ,
i salute you for your loyalty.
a lil bit from english lesson yesterday.
sometimes random talks do comes in handy.
thank you english lesson.

im at the edge of my emotions.

currently addicted to Terrified - katherine Macphee(:

2010-06-30T08:37:00.001-07:00

Its back.

2010-06-24T08:37:00.001-07:00

whats past, let it be history. Move On please, ty.

2010-05-30T01:48:00.000-07:00

After reading Dowa's blog , i realised how much different it is
between Secondary school and private school.
Yes , honestly , im starting to realised too in why secondary schools have such rules.
like a big scoldings from the teacher when we dont do our homework.
while in private , they dont freaking care , or remember that they actually gave you one.
like receiving calls from teacher when you did not go to school.
while in private , they dont probably realised that 5 of their student went missing for 3 weeks.

taking O's in school is 5 times easier than taking O's in private.
in school , you have teachers , infact alot of teachers to actually be there ,
and they will be finding you just to make sure youre doing good.
while this freaking private school ,
they dont even bother.

because the moment i choose to take this route to actually retake my O's,
my mindset is suppose to be fixed.
and not to actually rely on anyone anymore to remind me that i have failed once.
but im no robot who doesnt need encouragements.
but i swear i dont need anyone to remind me that i will fail again,
because i know I WILL if my attitude towards private school were to be so low.
if i were to continue being so irresponsible towards myself.
if i were to take things so lightly.

Im too stubborn.
im not stupid in a way that i cant do anything right.
im stupid in a way that i dont even take any effort to.
June is so close right now ,
The month whereby most geeks would start their revisions close to 24/7.

Yes , like what Alysaeudora has mention in her blog ,
that whenever she thinks of maths , its big headache.
i totally agree.
me and her, have got to be honest that we have to actually start ,
from the very first topic of sec 3 to actually Master our Maths.
i have the plans set , yet not start.
someone has got to seriously be there for us.
but who ? /:
God , please send us one Maths Geek to show us the right way,
of doing maths ? ;P

nothing is impossible , dowa.
we've just got to believe in ourselves.
lets do it Nur Azura Binte Mohamad Sani.
and Alysaudora Rosanne Ali.
You can do it !!!

2010-05-09T09:51:00.000-07:00

I walked passed Fig And Olive the other day ,
I miss everything about it.
Being punctual during the Morning shift,
bought a mutton soup before work starts,
Doing those tables and chairs early mornings,
felt like a boss behind those cashier eating ice creams and shaking legs ,
Being a bar tender ,
Being a waitress , with a note pad and a pen on my hand.
Taking orders as polite as i can be (:
Choosing songs from mp3 to play out loud in the restaurant ,
To choose a meal in the Menu and Having free meals after work ,
free meals cooked by chef during break time ,
Having other co - workers to laugh and joke with ,
to run to the toilet to escape from entertaining crowds.
Standing still in a spot like an idiot waiting for customers,
going back and forth woodlands and vivo.
Sleeping in the bus due to long journey ,
stacking up the tables and chairs when its closed,
fucking customers which entered fig and olive when we're clossing ,
basically , i miss working in an Fnb Line (:

especially , getting tips like $20 all to myself from a customer (:

2010-05-09T08:19:00.000-07:00

Its May now , and i just realised that i need to start my enginessssss ):
Still no motivations , no encouragements.
However , i still need to do what needs to be done (:
Without test papers and exams ,
i really dont know if im progressing.
But i did tried testing myself ? and i sounded like an idiot.
i bet Alysaeudora Rossanne Ali needs someone to test her Geo ?
So come on , help me Test my Combine Science ley ? ;P
I know she will do her part as a friend (:
A's kan dowa ? Aingggkkkk !

Sick , Cry , Sulk , Mad . Angry , Pissed , Tired , Frustrated , kick ass , Now.
before exams.
Happy , Smile , Laugh , Jump , Party , Sing , sleep , Later.
after exams.

its three bloody damn subjects Nur Azura Binte Muhammad Sani.
Can you bloody hell just do this three damn subjects well,
and thats it , party all you want later ?
Can you act like an olevel student
and not someone who have just retired from 24 yrs of working ?
Its bloody hell MAY right now.
You have a fucking 4 to 5 months left to be prepared.
And i mean PREPARED.
not ermmm 50-50.
its your bloody second time reading/ studying the same old thing ,
well yes ofcorse there are some which is my first time since i did not focus last year ?
Chup chup chup , UP UP !
buck up now, and bloody hell suffer can ?
ask someone to slap your face if you need.
alright , my blog and whoever reads it , will be my witness.
this are not only words typed from me,
but i will be doing as what i say (:
Come on.

START YOUR ENGINESSSSSSS (:

True defination of disrespect.

2010-05-06T08:23:00.000-07:00

PEOPLE LIKE YOU DESERVE MY MIDDLE FINGER BODOH.
YOU FORGOT THE MEANING OF RESPECT IN YOUR LIFE (:
stop pointing, because youre just one of them.
plain rude bragging bitch.
i believe in , time keeps moving , people keeps changing.

CONGRATULATIONS, SO SHUT UP.

2010-05-05T09:09:00.000-07:00

Ok Ok lets update.
First reason is because Dowa wanted me to.
Second is because i just need to tell (:

Alysaeudora Rossane Ali,
is a strong girl not , but strong girl at heart (:
With things that she is facing ,
she can still smile and laugh ,
And the best part is ,
she accompanied me to school.
Saye sukeeeee (:
you cheer up alright babe ?
not at fault , so be happy ((:

Went to English Night Class just now.
and as per normal,
i am not trying to complain , but the lesson sucks.
The teacher is not helping.
She is there , Yes she is.
Talking about her Life , Bankruptsy , Foods she ate before ,
the first time she ever cooked a rice , and how worth it is shopping at johor.
Please tell me which part of it could help me pass my Olevels ?
Can i bloody hell dragged Mr Ratesh from australia ?
I wish -.-
He is the only ENGLISH TEACHER which teach with some sense.
And too bad , my current english teacher have been busy talking ,
from 7.30pm till 9 .15pm ,
I dont even need a pen and a paper.
How hard can life be ? infact , how hard can my situation be ?
Yes, alot told me to actually believe in myself.
before class started i have a full confidence in myself.
When class ended , all my confidence dropped.
I have no motivation to go to school.
and sadly , i hate the fact that Mum thinks i did not go to school when i actually did.
I dont think she gets the idea that my school is AT NIGHT.
and i will be coming home late -.-

The reason i took this route is just to satisfy people like
Mum and Dad.
and to actually make some people out there to SHUT UP.
i will try to kick my ass hard , and just get this done and over with.
After this , please let my future be my future.
Please let my life be my life.

Its very saddening okay ?
to actually face this painful journey ONCE AGAIN.
yes i know, its part of my fault for not doing it well the first time.
But please , dont have the mindset that i am and forever will be a failure.

And and , whats with people this days ?
can learn to actually be a lil bit Humble ?
Like saying in status : Oh im at Rp studying Poly stuff , not Sec stuff.
Fucker.
Like comparing schools , comparing whose child is better ,
comparing whose child have better grades ,
Like come on lah , Congratulations on what you have , so shut up (:

This is what people meant by , After secondary school life ,
Youll know who your true friends are.
Isnt it obvious now,
that who ever turns to be a fucking jerk as soon as they're in poly ,
are not true friends ?
whatever people (:

discipline time.

2010-04-25T22:42:00.000-07:00

I have really not been paying much attension to this blog ;P
Since there isnt nothing much that happened.

I watched a documentary about an ex Drug addict ,
who took its Olevels at the age of 20 + i think ,
he failed , but retook.
And he got B's and C's.
I read a page in New Paper ,
about this Wild Child, which only knows best about Clubs and Alcohols.
Something happened to him , and he realised he need to change.
And he started studying a few months before O's ,
however he passed with 2 A's.
This kind of people , could seriously do their Olevels ,
and i realised , why these people can do it.
Its the matter of whether you want to ace it or not.
And not just Wanting it , but Doing it as well.

Yes i did choose to retake my Olevels.
but i still havent put much effort in it for the past few months.
I did, but only for awhile.
And then i slacked.
But for the past few days , i have realised that i should have started months ago.
And for the past few days, i have the closest friend with me.
Which is there infront of me, Here there,
while im in the Mrt , while im in the Bus , While im walking , Sitting ,
Drinking and eating.
~ someone's Physics assignments book.
Yes, i decided to focus on my physics for the past few days ,
because the teacher have been teaching experiments but not any other details.
So , i decided to just do it on my own (:

English have been progressing ((:
Sukeeeeeeeeee ! ^^
But maths , Geeeeeeee.
Still need to find someone to help with it.
Liyana have given me the chapters they have been covering in school,
so all i need is to catch up ):
and i think private schools are WAAAAYY at the back.
so saddddddd and scaredddddddd.

and i feel as though the last time i went to night classes was Last Last week.
Because the classes are pathetic enough ,
once a week for one subject.
if i were to pass with flying colours this Year ,
its gonna be a miracle.

Little light.

2010-04-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

I need a light.
A little light would do.

people often say , dont judge a book by its cover , true true.
In this world , i believe there are all kinds of love.
Love which should be shared among the people you know.
When you love that someone , you want the best for them.
You want them to do whats right.
but sometimes, love had caused you to be selfish ,
and forced someone you love to do as you wish.
There are times where normal human beings create mistakes.
There are times when normal human beings take things for granted.
but , we as humans , have no rights to not forgive and give chances.

sedangkan nabi maafkan umat.
apetah lagi kite manusia biaser.

i still believe that i shall stand for something which i dont think is wrong.
I still believe , something can be done.
ku serahkan pada yang maha kuasa.

Friday/

2010-04-03T07:58:00.000-07:00

Good Friday ~
Science class was canceled and will be rescheduled.
i thought of going to grands straight away.
but uncle called and told me and sister to get ready.
and so i did.
He and Aunty along with their two cute lil handsome boys ,
brought us to Orchard Cash Studio.
We sang a few songs , tracks after tracks .
Hilarious things happened , we sang our lungs out ,
snapped pictures here and there , singing verse by verse ,
and then we headed off to east coast to meet grands.
While uncle was talking to grands , Aunty , me , sister and the cute lil boys ,
jumped around the sands and snapped some pictures.
suddenly , while laughing , all of us realised that there was this weird smell.
We ran to the pathway , and checked our own legs.
And yeah , sister's leg had a ' POO POO ' on it.
Growseeee ~
and then we headed off to a street seafood western coffee shop ,
to grab late night dinner.
we had an awesome time remincing old times with them.
and then headed back home.

I just finnished watching Manchester United Vs Chelsea.
And Yikesss , Man U lose.
but ive just got to be honest that Man U played lousy game today.
ZzZz.
probably without Rooney , so they are not that strong.
AND dont deny the fact that Macheda scored by using his hands . TSK .

there you go , i have got nothing to say any longer.

ecp.

2010-03-28T06:39:00.000-07:00

I followed Grands to east coast park to Chill.
I talked to two of my cousins.
Our conversations are more about Life of a teenager.
And Yes , I feel the conversation.
I feel as though ive been going through the situations mentioned ,
ever since i became a Teenager.
Situations whereby you will finally owned someone or Lose someone.
A situation whereby your patience will be tested to the very extent.
A situation whereby you feel as though people are looking down on you.
A situation whereby you feel as though no one is by your side.
A situation whereby people think differently about you.
And slowly , after each journey , i began to finally understand the meaning of life.
Accepting it is a lil bit too hard , but i will.
I have accepted the fact that nothing last forever ,
unless probably if you manage it w all your heart.
I have accepted the fact that i will be facing challenges that will be testing my patience.
I have accepted the fact that i will fail and will be looked down.
I have accepted the fact that sometimes there wont be anyone but me and God.
but today , i have just learned something that would benefit myself.

if someone were to think of you differently , you should not think its the end.
the end of the world or something.
you should be confident of yourself, because you know yourself better than anyone else.
you cant stop what they want to say , because its their mouth.
Every human being has their rights of their own life.
We as human being , should be accepting others regardless of how they are.
We are all the same , created by Allah.
We choose who we wanna be , because we will be facing death all by ourself.
Hating someone is a sin , accepting someone is a good thing.
because in this world , you can never find someone perfect.

Trust is another consern.
If that is the person you really love , trust them with all your heart.
Love between friends, families or just anyone.
if you think what they are doing is wrong , you can advise that person.
but not to the extent of accusing them and force them to own up smth they didnt do.

My cousin is in deep shit , and those are part of our conversations.
Meaningful Much.
She cried , and felt fucked up.
People who accused of smth that is totally not true , is so not cool.
And forcing someone to Own up when they did not even do it , is very not cool.
That Mat needs a Tight Tight slap (:
Thanks to my cousins for the deep convo's.
Which now i learned to just be myself and be confident.
Not trying to be someone elses which is so not you ?
and wishing that people would just stop talking about you ?
Nahhh , pointless.
People just dont know when to stop.
People who gets tired would probably will.
People who dont , then never will.

i told this to my cousin at the end , which she finally smiled.

Me : " diorang kate pape kau senyum jer lah , die gemok eh ? ke die tinggi sebab tu kau takot ? "
" kalau die gemok , kau tumbuk jer perut die macam punching bag. "
" eh tapi takmo ah , dose dohhh "

Cousin : " kau ni , pikir dulu lah baru bebual , aku baru rase cam nak tumbuk die tadi "
Me : " look , dont do wrong things, or youll just end up being just like them "
Cousin : " Good point. What am i suppose to do ? "
Me : " Smile & continue what youre dg if you think its nt wrong , kay ? "
Cousin : " Quite True , I will. "

I smacked her head and run away (:

when you miss someone.

2010-03-26T12:34:00.000-07:00

Missing someone isnt all about how long you have not talk to that person ,
or how long you have not meet that person .
Miss is when youre doing something , and wish that person is there with you.
And when you miss someone , tell them please , TY.
Next step , after telling them , make some space to actually make things better.
Like seriously , dont go on your words telling them you miss them.
but did not do anything to it.
because missing someone is a good thing at start.
but when its getting deeper , it hurts.

Private school.

2010-03-12T09:15:00.000-08:00

School was pretty much alright today ?
studied physics.
measurements of vernier callipers , using stopwatch , micrometer ,
and other more physics basics.
The teacher told me that he will be teaching physics for the next 3 to 4 months ,
and then he'll start on chemistry.
omg , is that really a good way ?
so either June or July then ill be studying chemistry ?
gosh , i guess i have to start now , ON MY OWN.
my partner asked the teacher this : " is buying a textbook , a Must ? "
the teacher answered :
" this is a private class ,
NOTHING is a must , you want you buy , you dowan to buy , we dont care "
then i was like giving that WTF face.
its okay its okay , we can work it out on our own then.
this private lessons aint helping me man.
i mean SCIENCE.
maths for now is pretty much stable.
although they are covering up matrices over and over again ,
due to some students who just started on matrices their FIRST EVER TIME.
so me and dowa have to endure and listen to it OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
yeah fine , this is what repeaters like me have to face isnt it ?
but however, the best part is that me and dowa would definitely get the answers Right.
erm except for the fact that we would have some careless mistakes here and there (;

so dowa have pure geo lessons today , without me !
ill be meeting her again on wednesday , and again story telling through out the journey.
and then buy either food or drinks.
and then had some Oxygen down the block , and headed off to class.
and will find the class boring.
and will be wishing for the teacher to let us go for a break for some oxygen again.
and when break time is over , will dragged ourself up to class.
and will find the class boring again.
and will be hoping for 9.45 so that we could all go home (;

NORMAL ROUTINES.

HATE

2010-02-27T10:07:00.000-08:00

sadly , i didnt meant to HATE you , but i am starting to right now.
i dont want to hate people , but you somehow asked for it.

2010-02-27T02:51:00.000-08:00

it has been so long since i last updated i guess ?
and people have been asking me what am i doing this days.
so then now i choose to update.
so i am now retaking my O's at unity secondary school.
i have night classes from 7 to 10pm.
first week of my classes was pretty much alright.
maths and english classes was alright with Alysa around.
but science class ? im pretty much on my own.
since this is the second time im learning this things ,
i keep going " OH OH , I KNOW THIS ONE " TSK.
but i have to remind my self , that i am a repeater , and so i have to shut up,
and let other people in the class make themselves understand.
and oh oh , i keep laughing over small things in science class alright !
firstly , there is this chinese girl sitting at one corner.
she kept asking questions , im fine with it at first.
but then when the teacher gave us all a paper to complete ,
she get it wrong , and she knocked the table real hard man !
causing the chemical bottles to fall all over.
wth is wrong with her ? haha.
i dont know , but i just find it hilarious.

i just realised that i shoudnt depend on the night classes itself.
it wont work.
i need to revise things on my own , and do some papers on my own too.
ill start the second week.
and and , the classes only last for 1 and a half hour for each subject per week.
if i were to rely on that particular class , ill be failing my olevels the second time man.

2010-02-08T21:48:00.000-08:00

Dream of what you want to dream , go to where you want to go , do what you want to do , be with who you want to be with , because you have only one life , and one chance to do whatever you want to do.

2years +.

2010-02-06T10:12:00.000-08:00

i want something that could prove me how strong you meant those words (;

2010-02-06T10:11:00.000-08:00

Im sorry );

2010-02-03T03:06:00.001-08:00

Today , i just realised there are tears rolling down my cheek.

2010-01-31T06:17:00.000-08:00

WAITING FOR MIRACLES TO HAPPEN IS MUCH MORE PAINFULL
THAN WAITING FOR A LATECOMER TO ARRIVE.

because you know miracles wont happen , no matter how long you wait ,
but latecomers will still come no matter how long you wait.

its just yours.

2010-01-30T04:44:00.000-08:00

Have a look at it.

Mama shouted my name , asking me to wake up.
So i did after several rollings in bed.
So we went to sembawang for breakfast.
then at night we went for a dinner with papa.
separated with mummy and daddy , because they wanted to have a date.
tsk. they went to catch late night movie.
while me and sister went to pastamania with her friend to eat again ! (;
so i met Sars ! she was called a cute lil weirdo for a reason. heh.
so then after having alot of junk food in my tummy , they were pretty upset.
so we headed home , but by walking. tsk.
reached back home , watched High school musical 3 ! ^^
repeatedly(;
i even sang along with them. heh.
i am still not a discipline person.
because i havent start on my maths );
scold me anyone ? tsk.

life is a short while you know ?
if youre confident that you love that someone , you better show.
because there will be no time for any regrets and
its time for you to appreciate what you have right infront of you.

im rotting.

2010-01-28T06:15:00.000-08:00

too bad youre just one step ahead from me.

world behind my wall.

2010-01-22T07:38:00.000-08:00

I tried the games that they play'd , but they make me insane.

2010-01-16T08:25:00.000-08:00

so nowwwww , i have to start all over again huh ?
im going to face those books back again tommorow.
and at the same time , i am now a part time PSLE tutor to my cousin.
she's dead , im telling you.
and oh , i have to start back from scratch.
so ive asked several people for help to prepare , thank god.
And Maya maya maya , accompany me back to school some time alright ?
i think i need to meet Ms Lim maaaan (;
i feel like going to the library tommorowwww !! ;D

2010-01-11T05:22:00.000-08:00

i just felt like im gonna have to face everything on my own this time.
its really painful.
youre not gonna hear about me until i have a fixed solution for my future.
best of luck Nur Azura.

you , congrats on your results.
im proud of you , very indeed.
you listen to your parents alright ? be a good child.
study smart , gonna have a bright future.
dont worry about me , ill be fine.
just dont forget me alright ?
i know youll lead your life perfectly , ill be smiling for you.
see , i told you , you can make it.
i know you will prove mama papa wrong.
again , congratulations.

2010-01-05T07:40:00.000-08:00

lets talk about what everyone around me is busy talking about.
OLEVEL RESULTS.
for goodness sake , can i have just one day with that thing outta my mind ?
i mean seriously , the results are coming out soon.and yes , i have the number 30 in my head as well.you know just how bad i am when it comes to be confident with my results.
the only thing im good at imagining now is me holding my results slip with tears rolling down my cheek. ohhh mee goosh , im effing scared can ?
the thing is , im confused.
i have this in my mind.
i might fail because i think i did alot of careless mistakes.
i might pass because i did tried answering ?
lets just leave it to god.

and now , here comes the most frustrated part.
I LOST MY PHONE.
BLOODY F***ING BASTARD.

2009-12-28T18:57:00.000-08:00

Do i seriously look like im 17 ? (;
so yesterday was pretty much awesome (;
it was unplanned to actually meet different people for a few hours.
a few hours spent was pretty good then nothing at all.
firstly , thank you to everyone that wishes me either on FB or by text.
appreciate it alot (;
secondly , thank you to the people that make the day so well (;
thirdly , thank you to Jo for being my companion in mrt rides on the 28th (;
next , dowa , akiah and afiqah , i can only meet you girls on wednesday.
and only for a short period of time after my work alright ?
so now what ? wait for the next 28th december ? wah no need.
LONG WAY TO GO.

and now , im suppose to get ready for work , but im plain lazy.
i swear. ive got no damn mood to go to work anymore.
i swear ! ):
maybe because i know i have to go through this.
woodlands to cityhall , alone.
citylink to suntec city mall to carrefour , alone.

all i want is to be with you until i know that you have to leave , and i made it.

2009-12-21T04:38:00.000-08:00

woke up at 9 every morning. off to work. and home by 10.
i know i owe so many people some time to spend with.
text me , and ill make a time for you all. really. must text ! (;
especially that MAYA , who claimed that i owe her a meal ! heh.
someday alright ? ;D
im not suppose to count the days , but i accidentally did.
oh well , not even looking forward for it.
since im not expecting anything ! ^^
so since tommorow my oh so dearest manager asked me to start my work at 11 ,
so ill have to wake up early again tommorw.
not doing anything in the mrt for a long journey is oh so boring.
but oh well , it will only last till friday.
ENDURE.

2009-12-14T07:56:00.000-08:00

( if there could be one wish , is a wish to bring you here. )

its okay to want someone you cant have.
its okay to want something more.
its okay to cry when youre hurt, its okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you.
believe it or not , its always going to be okay.
thats just how it works.
sometimes things dont work out how you want them to , and most of the time ,
it seems like never will.
but eventually , everything is going to iron out some way or another.
just have to believe , keep your faith and move on.

i love the way my fingers just fall into yours.
i love how the taste will lingers on my lips after a special goodnight kiss.
i love how whenever i go to call someone i automatically dial your number.
i love how you look at me with those goegeous eyes and then you show me that smile.
i know right here that you will always be mine.
i love how you hug me with the intention of never letting go.
i love you more than words could ever show.
i want to be the person who brings the biggest smile to your face ,
and make your life worth living.
24hrs a day , 7days a week , 365 days per year , ill always be there.
1 : " you .. "
2 : " hmm .. "
1 : " ermm nothinggg ... "
2 : *look away.
words i can never say it out and because of that , i know i failed.
2 : " what do you want to see in future ? "
1 : " you ? "
things that i wish youd ask.
things i wish i could tell you.

2009-12-12T12:17:00.000-08:00

NO LONGER A WATSON MEMBER BAYBEH !
read my lips , especially to Dowaaaaaaa ;D
OFFFFFFFFFFF to something NEWWWWWW ! ;P

2009-12-05T07:27:00.000-08:00

I GUESS YOU THOUGHT IM ASLEEP. TSK.

2009-11-28T12:11:00.000-08:00

OMG REALLY AHHH ?! 0.o
hahahahahaha. =P
credits to Mayazrr.

2009-11-28T11:35:00.000-08:00

Yes , time has been occupied once again.
an employed worker at watson.
happy moods/swing moods/pressured/tired/sleepy.
i dont really have any idea what to talked about right now.
for now my mind is BLANK.
i have to work tommorow but not yet asleep.
and oh , some people are still unaware that i am not using my number for now.
ask me in msn or smth and ill pass it to you alright ? ^^
and oh , a new month is coming soon , real soon.
all im hoping is that it will be a good month because its the end of year 2009.
and because i have been waiting for it.
but i know things wont happen as how i am expecting it to atleast be.
i keep reminding myself that NOTHING will just happen.
last year , i celebrated it well enough with the people at my workplace.
but this year , i could just wonder (;

you sound just like a lil kid , baby (;

something long to read. lol.

2009-11-21T10:34:00.000-08:00

to be an understanding person , is very hard.
to force yourself to understand a situation , is very hard.
i need you.

friends.
dissapointed in this two person.
a war just happened a few days back.
my name was involved for no valid reason.

You coudnt get the perfect answers to my questions.
i talked like a rude person because i was protecting my name.
i am not in any sides. both side are just my friends.
friends that will make lame jokes to make me smile.
i did not expect you all to fight with each other.
and more , i did not expect my name to be involved.
when all i knew was NOTHING.
and i did not expect you , to actually talked behind your friend's back.
i thought you are someone brave , that would be straight forward enough.
and you , you have issues with me still being friends with them even though youre fighting with them ? why should i fight with them when they did nothing wrong to me ?
oh so you told me i am making the wrong choice and be friends with the wrong people ?
if you know me well , i dont CHOOSE my friends.
whether or not they are bad or good , i will never COMPARE or CHOOSE.
oh so you said that friends like them are easy to find anywhere ?
i dont care ,
whether or not they are hard to find , or easy to find .
whether or not they want to talk behind my back , they are still my friends.
you dont go around the world telling people that they are the worse friends you ever had.
because remember , they have once wiped off your tears and created a smile on your face.
remember that you have onced told them how you appreciate them in your life.
so better dont regret. because this things just happens in life.
you dont go tell your friends not to be friends with us
because i knew you want everyone all to yourself.
and you should be lucky enough i kept the things that you talked behind their back,
just to save your friendship with them.
and now just because they fought with you , you put the blame on me.
fair for me ? i havent even mention anything to them , they just realised.

and to you , someone who i thought was a soft hearted person.
you changed in the middle of the year .
you accused me of talking behind you back ,
just because i am now friends with you so called ex bestfriend.
sorry to say , i am happy that i have actually made the right step to be friends with her.
because i can see that she is someone that has a heart.
what about you ? you say she was your greatest friend you ever had.
but when she did just one stupid mistake , you could not even forgive her.
last time , when i first be friends with you ,
all i ever wished was that you could protect yourself
and not let other people took advantage of you.
but now , youve changed into someone that never knows how to compare between
friends and enemies. you talked to people like they owe you one hundred billion dollars.
i dont find that an improvement, my friend.
i find that rude , youre getting worse.
this doesnt only come from me , but this comes from people who knows the true you.
and the person who you called a bestfriend is suppose to be teaching you
in how to be a more confident person who would step up for yourself ,
but not how to be a rude person and not respect others ?

this post was not meant to talk behind the both of you.
why do i even publish it in public ?
because i know one of you will tell each other about this post.
this post is to actually tell you that not only my friends have flaws.
so as the both of you.
this post is to tell that i dont mind being friends with the people you thought are bad ,
because i knew everyone has it good sides.
its either they choose to treat you good or bad.
i just hope you would stop think highly of yourself because everyone has its own flaws.
just put yourself at the lowest position , and just be friends with whoever can ?
because everyone NEEDS a friend.

people took each other as an advantage.
like you , you know very well i dont talk rudely to people.
so why on earth are you using that language to me ? asking for it ?
and im glad that i have talked things out with a fair deal.
i have talked to you in a rude way and end it in a nice way.
i have cleared my name and i have said sorry for doing my part as a friend.
i love my friends , really.
thank god (;

i got a feeling.

2009-11-17T07:19:00.000-08:00

I dont think i need my phone any longer , my life is slowly ruined.
im not using my current number.
takecare.

2009-11-14T08:06:00.000-08:00

when olevel has already over , we people are suppose to be happy.
i dont know why i am wishing that school are still open.
its either because im sick of slacking or im sick of planning what to do after a few hours.
I accompanied this two lovely sisters , faizah & Syafiqah , to city hall.
we round all over to city link and marina square.
I snapped pictures of them here and there.
At last the clock shows 6.15pm.
we ran all the way to raffles to the only Mosque in Town area for our prayers.
to be honest , it was my first time doing my prayers with them (;
and the feeling was awesome ! ^^
after that , we walked around clark que , and they accompanied me to the sgp river,
since i really love the scenery there.
i was somehow proud when i saw how both of them communicate.
eventho it has been so long that they have not met each other , no akwards.
when you love someone , handle it with care , they may slipped off.

so far , ive only found two.
Mango and sportslink.
have to wait for them to call me on monday.
however , i still have Two interviews at Guess and Watson on monday.
chetsss.
i want more of donut empire pleaseeeee ? );

2009-11-14T04:48:00.000-08:00

2009-11-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

I agree with this ~

IF YOU THINK HOLDING ON IS HARD ,
WAIT TILL YOU LET IT GO .

2009-11-07T09:38:00.000-08:00

gue sayang kamu sihh , love (;
alright sorry, i get over reacted after watching " eiffel , im in love " .
since Maya Azr wants to know how the story of how i topped up my phone ,
so here goes ..
Grandpa , Grandma , Uncle & me , went out for dinner.
Grandma bought some food and groceries.
then here goes the convo .
" got anything left to buy not ? i asked.
" no ? , grandma answered.
" really not ? i said repeatedly.
" what you want ? top up ah ? " she asked.
" *giggles , oh well . " i replied.
" go buy go ." gave me $50.
" buy which one ? finnish fast or use longer ? " i asked her to choose.
" LONGER LAH ! " she answered.
i came back to her , showing her the Happy 128 starhub card (;
weeeeee , im her cute lil pampered grandchild ! ^^
and oh , left one paper , science paper 1.
and thats it ! olevels will be oh so overrr !
ill then promise myself to party like a DOG !
5 thinking will have to do that for mr ratesh. come on ! (;

turn out to be . .

2009-11-03T11:22:00.000-08:00

Too bad i have no choice but to stay up the whole night,
in order to cover up certain topics.

geography on food.
variations of food consumption ( done )
Green revolution ( done )
Blue revolution ( not done )
GM food ( done )
waterlogging ( not done )
salination within the soil ( not done )
negative effects of green revo ( not done )

everything on development ( not done )

River and coast.
spit tembolo ( done )
gorge ( done )
waterfall faulting ( done )
floodplain levees ( done )
cliff and shore platform ( done )
ox bow lake ( done )
headland & bay ( done )
swash & backwash ( done )
longshore currents ( done )
channelisation ( not done )
hard and soft engineering ( not done )

im dead. i have alot to cover. and the paper is tommorow.
sorry for this -.-" post.
i just thought i need to see how ive did for my revision.
and it turned out to be Sucky. tsk.
back to revisions. . . . . .

three more papers to gooooooo.

2009-11-03T09:15:00.000-08:00

alright people .
here goes , social studies paper was a smile for me.
suprisingly, i only studied bonding of singapore and it came out.
alhamdulillah.
and i studied chem for about two hours for the whole paper 2.
and thanks to a few people for helping me out.
so it was ermmm, okay not okay. whats english anyway ? ;P
and now , tommorow will be geography and physics.
ive studied physics for only 3 hours.
and i studied geography for only 4 hours );
can i make it ?
dah got to go , have to continue with geography.
best of luck again to all olevel students(;

one more lap.

2009-10-31T11:38:00.000-07:00

School library with Maya Azeera / others.

Will be going to the Regional woodlands library tommorow.
With Maya Azeera. prolly atika will come along ?
will be waking up early at 8 and will be meeting her by 9 ?
since she really is craving for the Kfc poridge , so we'll be having breakfast first.
my plan was to again master back my Bonding of singapore.
And after that my nothern Ireland and Sri Lanka ( since Mr Zai say its a must ).
and after that my Venice , by 4pm (;
and after that start with my chemistry summarise back all the topics till 6 ?
and then with my geography drawings till the library close ! horaaaaay ! ^^

Monday schedules ~
after exam papers , summarise back geography notes .
and then off to physics.
can i really follow my schedules ?
can can can , discipline ! come on ! (;

2009-10-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

firstly , Happy birthday to Nurul Atika Binte Kassim(;
~
secondly , ive always wanted to wish you on your birthday in person.
however, i know its impossible especially when now im busy with my o's.
and now that its pretty hard to contact you.
but still , youve once be part of my life, and i still do think you are still part of it.
you have been my bestest friend since year 2005.
you have always done your part as a friend.
you make me laugh , you listen to my ups and downs ,
we do things together , we bought the same things .
you are like part of my family and im like part of your family.
your parents trusted me to actually took care of you.
however, you fell for an idiotic guy , left your family
and your life turns out to be so miserable.
but still , after all , youre still my friend.
happy birthday to Nur Syafiqah ( Mj ) .
~~
not forgetting , happy birthday to Atiq Fadhzil(;
~~
oh i forgot , i wanna say thank you to people like ,
Maya Azeera for accompanying me to school library from 10 to 2.15 ,
and had last minute revision for maths paper 1.
Thank you to Iffah & Atika for teaching me maths too.
Thank you to NurFirdiyanah Aqirah for accompanying me to study, without fail.
~~
and last but not least , lets talk about my papers.
my english paper 1 , was pretty alright.
my english paper 2 , was a smile.
my maths paper 1 , was tricky.
my maths paper 2 , i cried at the end of the paper.
for maths paper 1 , i did alot of careless mistakes.
for maths paper 2 , i was blank. the things that i studied did not came out however.
and i did not have any curve ruler with me. tsk.
and now, im left with chemistry/physics and geography/social studies.
and im left with 4 days to study 4subjects.
best of luck.
i can already say goodbye to Masscommunication.

2009-10-24T19:49:00.000-07:00

Cant help it but to let it all out in blog.
woke up early at 9am to study Ss in school canteen. did i mention it was on saturday ?
For ss , ill be working on Bonding of Sgp, Venice, Healthcare & Globalisation.
as for maths ?
i am proud of myself that i admitted how lazy i am when it comes to solving maths qs.
and i actually forced myself to do maths for 6hours yesterday.
however, i still think that i need a month to actually pass my maths paper.
a challenge.
to be someone confident when a maths paper is directly infront of its eyes.
English ?
i was sitting down at a corner at the library level 2 , with more than 10english books ,
including english vocab , english dictionary and english useful phrases.

I went back home with hungry stomache and a pair of heavy eyes.
drag myself to the kitchen, grabbed some food.
after that, went in to my room, started on with my english revision.
however, i did not managed to control myself.
doze off.

thank god i actually texted Zuhairi just on time.
i asked him to make himself free on Sunday to guide me with my maths (;
so ill be with him probably at the library till 1.30-4.30pm.
then meet atika for another maths lesson till 10pm , i guess.

Will be finnishing my english papers and meet up with MissMaz before the english papers.
After the english papers , will either meet up with my neighbour or Atika ,
for maths lesson. tsk.
schedules are all packed. cant wait for papers to end, maths especially.
and after that ill party like a dog like how Mr Ratesh told the class once before he left.
Best of Luck to all olevel students.

nurfirdiyanahaqirah had just made the greatest shocked of my life.
its the bloody hell first time that someone actually knocked on my door ,
and found out that i havent bathe yet. tsk.
early morning , just to take her wallet. haiyooo !

2009-10-22T08:28:00.000-07:00

practical was -.-"

dont know when will update again , away for a lil while.
since next will be eng and maths. sheesh.

Happy.

2009-10-19T08:18:00.000-07:00

This happens when i studied without resting.
Mind goes way way way out of control ;P
You make me happy . whether you know it or not.
you are the one i want for the rest of my days, really.
happy to know that youre mine , we're meant to be (;

2009-10-19T08:05:00.000-07:00

Idk what the hell is Maya trying to do ,
please vote , SLEEP OR DOING MATHS ?
LOL . Maya is going to kill me when school reopens. heh.

good friends will ask you to study hard.
great friends will study hard with you.
its a few days to go , be with me (;

2009-10-17T21:48:00.000-07:00

Too bad youre dealing with the wrong person.
when i believe that its mine , ill fight for it.
till the day i drop down dead.
its hard when people like you only knows how to interfere.
without knowing if what you did is the right thing or not.
yes , i can say youve got one of the genius brains.
however that doesnt prove that everything you do is right.
too bad you did things without thinking.
and now youve lost my respect for you.
you used to be someone down to earth , someone who respect others.
just because you wanted to be selfish , and now others dont welcome you in their life.
ive once or repeatedly told you how i really believed in Karma.
and your friend told me , that karma is happening to you.
i guess you never seem to realise it huh ?
and oh , let me just tell you this one last time ,
youve just got to stop trying to separate people, because it wont work.

2009-10-05T02:51:00.000-07:00

When was the last time youre scared of losing me ?
i am so scared.

2009-10-04T11:05:00.000-07:00

went out with Uncle and Aunty along with dearest Sharizal to Vivo City.
We headed to Long John Silver to grab some food.
Shop shop , had some convo's going on here and there.
bought few stuff and headed back to woodlands around 10nish.
Went to Thriple8 area to grab some stuff.
reached back home at midnight.
and watched soccer. chelsea is at the top of the table -.-"
bullshit.
next week is going to be one of a hell again. i am gonna be catching up with time.
he went like " be a striker that could sprint very well " ;P
i dont know how to react infront of you tmmrw. tsk.

In an Uneven channel.

2009-10-04T00:01:00.000-07:00

Life , there will be obsticles here and there.
Like an uneven channel. where there will be rocks and pebbles.
Life is never easy.
its difficult when you feel as if you have no one that can actually understand you.
when you feel as if youre facing things on your own without people hearing you shouting.
so now all i can do , is pretend that i am all fine (;
lets force the smile, maaan.

2009-09-30T06:56:00.000-07:00

yes, very busy with studies this few days.
infact it will be through out the whole of this month and next month.
in school from 7.20 to 5nish.
head back home, freshen up, went back school at 7nish for night study.
this are all for O;mygoodness.
alot of assignments to be completed. i only had 4 to 5 hours of sleep every day.
and yes, im tired like shit ass.
i can pretend like i am all full of energy , but on the inside , i am really in need of a hug.
tsk.
someone told me , suffer now , and you'll enjoy after all.
yes, i will. thank you.

2009-09-26T21:29:00.000-07:00

Keep it warm.
Because he is sick );

ill stop.

2009-09-22T04:23:00.000-07:00

I just felt like someone so different. However , i know ill change sooner or later. I have different moods every now and then. I dont blame other people if they were to be dissapointed of me , i know i am doing the wrong things. Unexpected things had happened to me this past few days.
i woudnt want to elaborate further more. for now , lets just keep it low.

I did not go to school , as i coudnt sleep well last night. I ended up waking up late. tsk. I met azri after that to slack for a lil while. accompanied him to woodlands mart. and then back to his place to take lappy. then we separated. i meet up with dearest cousin , sha , at thriple 8 to go grands. So as soon as i reached grands house , i saw my dearest Uncle. Oh my , his back. like finally after 5 years. we talked and talked. and he need to settle certain stuff , so we had to seek for forgiveness to each other due to hari raya celebration. Everyone in the house cried. yes. ok done , logging off. and i have make a promise to myself and others, that ill study like ass. taaa.

Selamat hari raya.

2009-09-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

Selamat hari raya to everyone ! ;D
well the first day of raya , its suppose to be white + turqoise ,
however i wasnt wearing my scarf for that moment of time.
so there goes my hair , snap snap snap.
credits to tyra for the encouraging words during the cycle 12.
she went like " it doesnt matter if your hair is short or long , the true beauty lies in you"
credits to Nyra , for make up;s and hair style.
ok done for now. more pictures in facebook ;D

ill play your game :D

2009-09-18T03:35:00.000-07:00

others should know how to find me.
thank you.
-
i wonder why you tagged?
have some guts to text/call if you have issues with me.
i thought i had a deal with you saying its over?
try reading back your texts, ermm maybe you forgot ?
i pity you. ):
-
PS: DON'T BOTHER MY LIFE ANYMORE.

15th sept.

2009-09-17T19:39:00.000-07:00

There was a story behind every picture.

alright , we are all supposed to wink , however turned out to be sick eyes.

ok girls, smile to the camera ! ok thats no Flute eh shak.

The heights are in a random arrangement eh please.

And finally , its time to play with fires ;P

I need to tell you all that this is not our first time.

Oh yes , i have my own ! ;D

and i wonder why they went so hyper ! -.-"

fine then , ill go hyper myself.
so we headed back home at around 10nish.
shak was late , so i planned to just take the cab.
we struggled like ass to find a taxi.
atika and i went drunk.
not as in literally drunk , but out of control.
so we shouted everywhere across the street.
shouted for taxi, shouted because we're tired, shouted because we want to go home.
we had caused a sleeping uncle to woke up.
we had stole someone's taxi by cutting the line.
we had fainted in the taxi.
i went out of the taxi and vomited repeatedly.
went home and sleep.

2009-09-15T00:57:00.000-07:00

i could not sleep yesterday.
and so i took out all my physics notes and assesment books.
studied only two chapters );
Sound and kinematics, tsk.
im slowwww. cant make it one. hah.
however , i did tried studying most of the topics.
hopefully by today.
however, ill not be at home today ! so how ?
lol.
i helped mama to clean up the windows. total 5 ?
and i am so tired please.
i am mummy;s good lil girl ! ^^
alright , i gtg now. need to get ready.
meeting shak / akiah / atika .
ANONY/ANNOY , THANKS ALOT.
appreciate it though.
i hope youll know your own name one day.

2009-09-14T09:16:00.000-07:00

chill out with him.
we were sitting down the block, an talked like there is no tmmrw.
suddenly this makcik and pakcik walked passed.
me and azri looked down and sit down in a very appropriate way,
hands on the lap.
the pakcik went like " pengantin baru tu ! "
they went off , and we burst out into laughter. heh.

and oh , my motive is just to wish someone.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NURUL SYAFIKAH BINTE ZAINI ! (;
HAVE AN AWESOME DAY AYE ?
AND GOODLUCK FOR O'S ! ;D
purplesugar.
p.s : dengar dengar katak boleh lompat ? ;P

boy , my jacket ?

2009-09-14T04:59:00.000-07:00

i stayed home the whole day today with mama. and i studied physics ? and suddenly fell asleep. mama however woke me up after 30 mins ! and i followed her down to shop. she was in a very good mood i tell you. she bought me everything i asked for. i want chocolates ? milk ? veggies ? she bought it all. and oh , not to forget , she even topped up my phone without asking me. hah. so after that, i went online and watched many episodes of america next top model on youtube. thanks to maya ofcorse. heh. and now i wanna get ready to meet Azri !(;

cool.

2009-09-12T02:02:00.000-07:00

i laughed and smiled whenever i looked at this picture.
people please agree with me !
i just hope my life would be as easy as babies.
and yes , babies and small kids never fail to make me smile.
and you , budak kecik.

i feel like running .

2009-09-11T06:40:00.000-07:00

what a snap -.-"
yes , sometimes i feel like running from all the things that is bringing me down. however now, i guess i should just face the situation and solve it before thing gets any worse.
Geography paper had already ended yesterday ?
and yes , i did not sleep the whole night the day before to actually memorised whatever i can. and after that went for a bath and straight to school. i swear my eyes was all heavy.
maths papers are like finally over just now ? should i actually be happy for that ?
because ive been wishing for it to really end. but i know i shall not be happy, because at the same time i knew i did it badly. i was just having fun copying the questions in the foolscap.
i know i need to do harder for my maths. its time to really do it man. if i dont, then dream on about going to University eh. tsk.
Next paper will be on next wednesday , and its physics please(; suprising but not , i am more excited in doing my physics rather then maths. yeah ofcorse.
and after the paper just now , i was walking swinging my bag , talking to tasha about my blog song , while suddenly , i accidentally hit her with my bag. ooops ?! lol.
accidentally laaah.
so i accompanied mummy to geylang . basically just to find our baju kurung ? and without wasting any time , mum just grabbed this white baju kurung for me. and i was too lazy to actually walk around geylang anymore , so i just agreed on that.
however , the sales woman make me feel so good when i was trying on it.
" oh sayang , you look very beautiful my dear "
yes , probably sales assistant would use sweet praises to actually attract customers.
but i know she's sincere on that one. lol.
alright , basically i am not that eager to celebrate Hari Raya this year.
but i am just looking forward to welcome this beloved person of mine that i have been waiting for him for 5 years. And in order to welcome him , my family have actually decided to do an open house on the second day of Rayer. I was very happy lah please.
i think i am going to run towards him and hug him can ? i felt like giving him a kiss on his cheek. its been five damn years without his touch. and i miss him. really.
and i love him like superr , just that he did a terrible mistake.
say goodbye to your second home uncle , the prison.

whatever.

2009-09-09T00:22:00.000-07:00

im currently pissed with blogger. you know why. tsk. Okay, i just talked to haleem in Msn. and thank god he gave me super tips for my olevels. sheesh. Thanks haleem.

1) eventhough its last minute , if you study well , you can do it.
2) dont study with the same group , mix around for many methods.
3) teachers are not for a study , but they will only answer your questions.
4) study mostly alone , unless for your weak subjects.

This are the ones i really wont forget. lol. im left with four beautiful but sucks subjects left. and i need to master it. shit. not gonna online or update that much. because i am gonna be so busy. trying to be a geek. im done.

you , be in this with me. prove other people wrong. we dont slack like all the time ? i remember reminding you to study everyday without fail.
be strong as how im trying to be.

DONE ! I WANNA GO LIBRARY NOW PROLLY WITH AKIAH AND MAYA.
maya will come only if there is table. tsk.

2009-09-07T11:09:00.000-07:00

i went to 883 to actually buy a coke to chill myself.
however , met azri and so we talked for a lil while.
he told me " why are you so quiet today ? "
i answered him " why can people really know when im feeling down ? "
he replied " because if youre not , you'll talk non stop "
i looked down , trying to avoid his previous question.
went back home , tried to chill myself , however failed.
so i went online .
cant help it but wish that you would call me at midnight.
but my phone did not vibrate.
i felt that im living the world all by myself.
however thanks to maya .
for making me feel as though im not the only one feeling that way.
she's one of a hell good listener. responds very well indeed.
sayang kamu lah ! ^^
mayaAzr is a very strong person.
i salute you, really.
- ditched by people group -
she created that group name and i somehow smiled reading it.
i just realised that , taking things easily is not a good thing.
but at the same time , taking things too seriously will harm yourself.
i tried to be a good person , however some people prove to me that i failed.
shall i try better ?

Random.

2009-09-07T03:53:00.000-07:00

trust me , im yours.
losing you is like living in a world with no air.
im here alone didnt want to leave.
if there is a way that i could make you understand.
how could you expect me to live the world with just me ?
cause my world revolves around you.
i sat alone , at the normal spot.
thinking what is going to happen next.
tears roll down , im out of tissues.
i need someone to hug me , because the winds blows strongly.
where were you when i needed you the most ?
tell me how youre gonna live without me.
are you going to be fine ? because i wont.
what hurts the most , was being so close , and having so much to say,
and watching you walk away.
i've seen that loving you is all i was trying to do.
its hard to deal with the pain that after what all ive given , you thought it was all a lie.
infact you thought it was all just a game.
i was wishing you were there , and tell me that you love me too.
because im a lil bit insecure.
from all of this mistreatments , but im working it out.
its so hard for you to actually understand that.
proving you that i really meant my words , is so haard.
its not easy.
cause i have been afraid that you would walk away.
i dont wanna end up with a broken heart , i dont want to play that part.
if i begged down on my knees , or if i cried ,
will it change and give me some light ?
i need you to come near me and make me feel as though youre mine.
i tried to reach you , i can almost feel you , and youre near.
but suddenly you dissapear.
you said you care , you said youll share ,
is it because we spend so much time , that its hurting me to let you go.
and i really wont and ill hold on tight.
are you losing grip ? whats happening ?
ill be begging you to trust me for now.
ill be wishing that youll still shower me with love and consern.
ill still hope nothing fades away.

i have you as my tattoo , ill have it forever.
i need you until my last breath , because youre my air.

long storyy ! ;D

2009-09-06T07:48:00.000-07:00

@ geylang.
so basically , ive been in a very pressure mood this days.
not as how happy i seems to be in the picture. lol.
the past few days , ive been surrounded with social studies essays.
memorised them and finnaly write it all down in two piece of paper during the exam.
so the good thing is social studies exam is over.
and here comes my geography paper next thursday ? tsk.
again, i have to memorise the notes by hard.
and the worse is , i still cant find anyone who could guide me with topic of development.
sheeeesh.
this will be the first time i ever did development during exams. terrible.
i really hope during olevels, it wont be a combine topic.

and oh , this is so random.
i am so gonna get my car license next year !
the feeling of travelling from woodlands to payar lebar for every weekends ,
is killing me ah please.
especially when it comes to going home time.
its already late at night and i have to travel by mrt, alone ! tsk.
therefore , ive made up my mind to really save up my own cash and get my license
NEXT YEAR ! ;D
yeah , since my friends said that i could get it when im 18 ?
so lets just try my luck (;
28 december 2010 .

and i have a dream last night ?
i did not sleep at all until the clocks ticks to 7nish am.
i had three dreams mixed.
firstly , i dream about myself going out of country , new york.
its just far away from home , and i achieved my freedom.
i went there by car , yes by car.
several pit stops , viewing the scenery here and there.
and when i reached to my destination hotel , get my room , and jumped to the hotel bed.
bla bla bla , shopping here there.
second dream , suprisingly i was a robbery ?
oh my goodness. lol.
i went in some rich people's house but somehow i did not stole anything.
i was just trapped in the house as the rich people suddenly came back home.
third dream , i was walking late at night.
it was after the olevels & so i just came back from work.
it was really late , some how there was a group of gang fighting .
i walked passed , i looked at them.
somehow some of them are not satisfied with the way i looked at them.
and they took out a knife and just stabbed me in my poor lil tummy.
and i was shocked that i fell out of bed.
drop down , and my ass was hurt.
kids shouting outside at the living room , and the clocks showed 3.45pm.
oh my my , what a sleep ! ;P

2009-09-01T08:47:00.000-07:00

its holiday today ? so why not take a break.
window shopping here and there & to pasar malam.
bought movie tickets.
we watched Bandslam at the nearest shopping centre.

Cosway point -.-"
the movie was pretty alright. overall , I had spledind Awesome ^^
walked back home after the movie.
did i mention picture snappingszz ? ^^
more pictures will be upload , only when blogger behaves well.

2009-08-31T22:26:00.000-07:00

Monday ~
Teachers day performance was -.-" . the only best thing was the girl singing The Climb. i swear. however , i enjoyed the show by shouting my lungs out with Atika , Fandi , Raymond , Adiy and Apul. Heck care lah. wednesday is going to be the start of our prilims. so why not let out our pressure now right ? heh. its totally the right moment to actually shout with no police to come and dragged you to jail. heh. So after the performance - head back home with firdi - go to the library with her after freshen up - study social studies - break fasting - back home . i studied geography at about 10pm nish. and damn , i cant understand development. sheesh. someone help me pretty please. im so good at chapter of food that im bad at development. too bad i have to study both since prilim is a combine chapter.

this is random , but i miss some people in the past. seniors ex evgians. : KakNadia, KakYana, KakNana, Apan.
Juniors evgians : Filliyana Gundu and the miscall.
my friends ex evgians : Zulhilmi and Syafiqah.

i miss apan. my brother's friend. the cutest one. pinching my cheeks asking me not to go back home late. the person that approached me when ever im alone and in a very random way. love to make random jokes. out of the ordinary. my cute lil spiderman. he wore a spiderman mask to school to make me laugh with his biggest crime partner, Dan.

Yana Gundu. i accidentally found the pictures of me and Yana Gundu. We went out for a day out. ate pizza hut. three round around the magical fountain. snap pictures here and there. Night phonecalls till early mornings. making her scared with horrow jokes after midnights. singing in the phone. shouting each other nicknames ( Gundu & pop ). this is so random.

The miscall. I miss those times with you guys. jamming till latenights. popping $4 each for a few hours jamm. meeting up at yishun macdonalds for luch. Laughing at anything we're talking about. having cigss whenever the song dont work out well . slacking after each practise. snap snap here and there. this is also random.

Zulhilmi. having him to be there for me whenever i need someone to talk to. shared a notebook for personal conversations. movie day out. neoprints. a timezone partner. he can really entertain my craps. because i crap non stop.

Syafiqah. having to know that a friend is a phonecall away. someone that could make me laugh through out the whole day. someone who calls for no reasons. the best listening ear. the best laughing gas. the best friend i ever had.

i miss them.

2009-08-29T09:26:00.000-07:00

everything i do, i gave my heart and soul. i give all my consern , trust and love. i wont expect anything in return. ill be the best of my best. ive promised you ill explain you the song. so i will. here goes. i change it in english for better understanding. let me just explain just a few parts of it aye ?

i can never will replace you with that person.
i can never will choose another.
i can never will love another , just to forget you.
i will never want to move away from having the position in your heart.

i cant do this by myself.

music player ~ is playing the songs that i have been listening repeatedly.
do listen.

2009-08-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

Friday ~
ended up suspended with four crazy girls. after school headed back home straight. tried having a lil nap , however something came up and brings my mood way way down to the very bottom end. sheeeesh. and then at about 6nish , fetch atika down at northplaza. she came to my house for maths private lesson and at the same time breaf-fasting together with my family. i sent her down to the bus stop at 10nish. cancel the plan to go home straight, so we headed to somewhere nearby for a lil chit chats. however, i received a text from someone and so i headed back home after sending atika to the bus stop once again.

Saturday ~
woke up early in the morning due to repeated vibrations. i am suppose to go to maths remedial. lol. had a splendid wonderful morning spent together with you. and after that , i headed back home at about 12nish and freshen myself up. meet atika at boots and shoes at 2.30pm. and im finally punctual ! omygoodness. heh. then we went to the library. oh my, it was superduper packed. im serious. its damn hard to find a spot. so after a few rotations around the library , we finally found two black chairs and a cute lil small spot to squeeze ourselves. there goes, we studied social studies for upcoming prilims.
1) Bonding of singapore.
2) Venice.
3) Globalisation / Healthcare ( back ups ).

geography lesson was awesome. having mrs harris as my new geo teacher was double the awesome. she actually called me sexy just because i greeted her in a very kid way while others greeted her in a very sleepy way. lol. she is willing to give me private lessons because since now she knew that i have four subjects left. sheeeesh. and oh, english olevel oral went pretty well enough , about cultures (;

sometimes.

2009-08-25T06:04:00.000-07:00

i really need someone to pull me to a place , whereby there will be peace ! pretty pleaseeee ! my mood is not behaving as how i wanted it to be . Small things could simply make my mood destroy in just a finger snap . Noise , is the last thing i want to hear for now. yes , sometimes i stuck on my green earpiece in both my ears with a super duper loud volume. staring at all my surroundings. looking at the people that never seems to shut their mouth up. i imagine being alone at that particular place. and yes , damn shit its hell peace. Ive never understand how i really am feeling. I dont even know what is really bothering my mind. i guess , i just need to chill.

how i wish , everyone could just shut up and listen to me.
suprisingly . i have nothing to say.

2009-08-23T03:18:00.000-07:00

Things could change.
small things
like wearing a watch on LEFT today and wear it on the RIGHT the next day.
i dont know ? small things could make me feel so down ya know ?
you : " eh dont wear your wrist band on your left lah ! "
me: " why ? "
you : " because left is for watches and right is for wrist bands. "
me : " okay , i'll change it"
A few weeks later ..
me : " eh why you wear your watch on your right ? "
you " entah ? cool ? "
me : " erm okayy "
okay random ! heh.
the wristband reminds me of you.

2009-08-23T02:55:00.000-07:00

what ever decision you made, you gotta ready to accept the consequences.
i believe in this.
when you lose certain things or a person, you'll get something back in return.
a replacement.
so even when youve lost some of your group of friends,
never to feel lonely because your old friends are still here for you.
yes , eventhough i felt like youve dump me once before.
and although your group of friends could not accept the way you are right now,
ill still accept you for who you are.
dont worry.
cheer up alright ?
i cant promise you ill go on the 6th of september with you guys.
gee , sorry.

self training @ wdls stadium.

currently blogging.
i had a deep convo yesterday night.
till 4nish am.
i get to know things that is beyond my expectations.
and after knowing it , it somehow increases.
im being honest here.
and let me just tell you , i hope you will not take any advantage of that.

2009-08-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

your actions just make me realised.
the times when you wipe my face with your yellow towel.
the times when you got scared because you had a bad dream.
the times when i felt that you needed me more then just anything.
the times when im just your everything.
i assume things that was never true.
i thought i was no one to you.

things will get better.
truly.

The results is finally released.

2009-08-19T06:41:00.000-07:00

Words could not explain how scared i am as i walked towards the spectrum room.
my heart was beating real fast.
I cant help it and so i hold alysa's hand.
my feelings was a mixture.
i was pretty excited but at the same time i was hell scared.
especially the minute when i know only 1 person achieved A1 and 4 students A2.
i waited , until Mal called up my name.
Damn shit.
Looked at the results.
alhamdulillah.

to all my friends , i know you guys can do better.
There is a second chance. Grab it if you think you should.
please make a wise decision.
to the ones satisfied , congratulations.
now strive harder for other subjects (;

in two hours time , happy birthday (;

i have to study geo & chem.
since tmmrw is the mock exam.
i swear im gonnal punnish myself if i fail the Geo mock exam.
sheessssh !

better be.

2009-08-18T06:31:00.000-07:00

Firstly , im pissed with the blogger. because yes , its a disaster. i cant even post a picture ); Forget it , well hope it gets better soon. H1N1. Ciaaaaaaan ;D so basically , tuesdays was pretty awesome. because i had a long free period whereby i could have my self study. I had my self study after school. Geography , since i will be sitting for the Mock Exam this thursday. And today , in history , my maths teacher actually cried. heh. not suppose to be funny though. however , she's just pissed with us. ah come on , maths has been my greatest rival since i am primary. When ill pass ? only during major exams when i took it like damn seriously. but oh my , she actually cried can ? Darn i felt so guilty. ill work hard aye ?
heh. oh and tommorow is the Mt olevel results. like finally i guess ? lets just hope for a B4 can ? i dont want to put any high hopes , because i dont want to end up feeling dissapointed of myself. If i got the grades which i trully aimed for , i will left 4 subjects to pressure on. Oh god , please lighten my task. it all depends on tommorow's result. Lets just wish for the best. i wish to have the best result for mama. i have told her this before " ma , my Mt olevel result will be for your birthday." Oh my, lets not end up crying tommorow. fighting with her is not a good thing. and this happens only once a lifetime. i have never fight with mama until yesterday. Sorry ); I need a place , whereby i could just have peace and not think of anything so heavy. I want someone that could just be there with me and find the air to breathe. a place to just rest my head. can i find it ?

lets just call it two years. i wish i am the first and the last you owned.

Saturday & Sunday

2009-08-16T08:04:00.001-07:00

Saturday~

We both headed up to geylang for the opening lights ceremony.
everything was alright.
we two short peepole tried tip toe-ing in the centre of the crowds.
gave up & ended up viewing the screen instead of the stage.
he is one of a hotstuff caaan ?
sheeesh , im gonna plead mama to buy me a blue this year raya ! ;P
heh. so basically had a great time talking with this babe of mine.
we saw this group of MR's ( minah repss ).
it doesnt worked seriously.
instead of looking like a big gangster , they ended up looking like a big jerks.
thanks to atika , we ended up being lost in the mrt and ended up at JOO KOON.
I ended up reaching home at 1nish am !
lucky no big scolding from mama cos i went back home with brother ^^

Sunday~

Atika & i planned to go to the library at 5pm but ended up going at 6nish.
we spotted Nad studying all by herself at a table.
therefore , we asked her to joined us along after ive found a table of four.
we talked about how N levels and Olevels are.
and it turned out to be a big pressure to all.
yes , N level is hard. its a tough call, really.
So nad , work your ass off alright ?
oh and about testing you physics , dont mention it.
ill do what it takes to help(;
nad is a cute person who brought a bread of nutella to the library in case of emergency.
lol.
I studied geo , since there will be a mock exam next week.
and anyway , goodluck to all the Nlevel students.
And goodluck for the Olevel student for the upcoming Mt olevel results ^^
look out for my reaction when i get my results.
if i were to cover my face , means im satisfied.
if i were to laugh , means im not satisfied.
^^

saturday.

2009-08-15T04:22:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 1nish pm. head up to grands house as per normal. i reached geylang at about 4nish. and this wonderful thing happen. I was walking and i saw this girl wearing the exact same top im wearing from mango -.-". darn shit. I tried escaping by walking behind her. However , it fails. because she turned and saw me ! omg , she saw me laughing & she actually shouted " Omgoodness " and laughed along with me. Wth. this is the second time i saw someone wearing the exact top with me. heh. today im going with atika to geylang serai for the opening lights ceremony at 8nish. and im currently waiting for atika. she's late can ?
Rezky Aditya will be coming ! oh my hotstuff(;
I am so bored right now. currently web cam-ing with sabrina now ;P
lucky she's here to entertain me.
i havent start my self study .
except that i kept reading this book.
" 9 steps to success , teens can make it happen "

that book just help me build up my self esteem.
whenever you encounter a problem , respond this to youself " never give up ".
and oh , i did my social studies source base question anyhow.
the question goes like this " what do you think the source is saying ? "
my answer " oh i dont know what the source is saying.
they are saying things that i dont understand. and i dont think i know what this source is trying to say."
omg , im asking for a big tight slap from mr allawden can ? heh.
im going now. taaaaaaa(;

breaking down.

2009-08-13T09:07:00.000-07:00

what can i say about school this week eh ? i either suffer total boredom or total madness. The situation was all messed up. Most students left for Dnt & Art workshop leaving 14 students left in 5 thinking. pathetic. i expected the lessons to be carried out as per normal. However , my social studies teacher proved me wrong. He came to class and directly had his own convo with another subject teacher. suprisingly till the bell rangs, period ends. wah seh. Good lesson. However , thanks to dowa , i had some geo self study with her. Thank god. I had other subjects during the day. I didnt expect other teachers to be such an irresponsible teacher , excluding mrs harris. The teachers didnt even step in the class can ? wah piangg. i escaped physics & maths class because i knew it'll end up the same way. And so i head up to the library with the others. I am sick & tired of the situation and now i plan not to go to school tommorow because tmmrw will just be another terrible boring day.
-
I went to Kk hospital right after chemistry remedial.
because syafikah and atikah had ended up hospitalised.
I hope they'll get better.
had a great time with Sars , Atikah & firdi (;
-
dowa , yes probably ive gotten the wrong idea about your sentences.
i hope our friendship could remain(;
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a cool voice every after midnight.

i cant deny it that we're getting better & better.
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im in no mood.

Beautiful/ Ugly past.

2009-08-08T06:26:00.000-07:00

I recalled back every moments , every thing that had happen in the past.
I somehow find it funny ?
You and you used to be mine.
however , we drifted apart & i think that was the right move.
because i have now realised how easily people could change(;
nothing last forever.
it could, if you were to start appreciate whats right infront of you.
I used to be a dumbass shit that could do anything to be the best for you.
but now , i no longer care or even bother.
I will and i can be there in times in need , but i can never be a fool once again.
~
being taken advantage of is the worse thing that has ever happen to me.
the fact that it keeps repeating , is freaking me out.
i tried to be the best for you, however you tested my patience too much.
its just over the line.
i dont hate you , i dont have any issues with you.
lead a good life aye ?(;
~
you came to my life & light up every darkness in the room.
thank god i met you , because im now a happier person.
greatest ownage, thank you for everything.
~
i'll be the best to who ever treats me best.
i dont choose.
and its not like i choose to act strangers infront of you.
the way you treated me just asking for it

zzzzzzzzz.

2009-08-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

many assignments & test to be completed.

2009-08-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

December
Loyal and generous. Sexy (LOL!). Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
~
i did this quiz at facebook about december(;
let me highlight the ones i totally agreed on.
the other ones , it depends on people's opinion.
i dont need to praise myself.
tak perlu ehhh ;D

Weekends ~

2009-08-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

Saturday ~
i went to haig road as pernormal to grands. i was crossing the road with mama.
suddenly, got super duper alot of people walking towards my direction. almost everyone was pushing me. Omg , i know very well that im short. I had this convo with mama after i get so pissed with people pushing me around.
Me : " ma why is thr so many ppl pushing me around? "
Mama : " because its saturday "
Me : " HUH ?! whats the link ?! "
Mama : " saturday , so got many people."
Me : " huh ? i dont find it a link."
Mama : " saturday = many people = push around "
Me : " huh ? kayyyyyyy "
i still dont get it somehow.
lol.
i stayed at home for the whole of sunday because im sick.
i dont have the feeling of stepping out of house.
i took two panadols and went back to sleep again.
heh.
homework still untouched ;D
omg dont remind me tommorow got Dc pleaseeeee !
~
i trust your words , but action speaks louder than words.
i dont need to ask you anymore.
i dont think its worth it.
for now , i will just sit down , silence.
and wait (;

i got a feeling.

2009-08-01T03:57:00.000-07:00

Last sunday.

hEEEEEEE ;D
As per normal , days are pretty much the same.
assignments all untouched.
heading to the library tommorow perhaps.
i dont feel like topping up this weekend.
probably monday(;

thr is nothing much i should say.
i could not say anything as soon as i met you that day.
because i know, its useless.
i guess all i have to do is heal it myself.
it takes time for me to recover.
i shut my mouth up and waited.
because you know that im all filled with (-) mindsets.
im done.

Monday Bluesss.

2009-07-27T07:10:00.000-07:00

I was not feeling rather well since friday. However, i still insist in gg to school today.
most of my classmates were all absent. I somehow wonder why.
but yeah , whatever , i continued my day very well indeed.
After school , although i had no remedials every monday ,
i followed Mel for maths extra lesson(;
Good friends will be on each others side ! ^^
i had a super great time with Mel , we laugh our ass out loud with Ms Ng can ?
we taught her malay words like " mampos , duduk , diam ! "
words that she could scold her students -.-"
i stayed in school until 6nish.
oh yeah, thanks to the weather , my flu is getting worse than evaaa !
bloody hell.
_
I THOUGHT OF GOING TO LIVERPOOL'S MATCH VS SINGAPORE,
WEARING MANCHESTER UNITED'S JERSEY.
LOL ! ;D
_
i cant hide it anymore. it hurts.
come on , i can do it !
everything will be alright.
im feeling down here & there , but you aint there with me.
infact ...

sick.

2009-07-26T04:45:00.000-07:00

geeek ;D

Currently having fever & flu );
Since i think i need a break from all the school stress , soooo.
i had fun partay-ing at dowa's homey the other night.
we bake 2 brownies on our own adding M&m & oreo;s, Yummy.
We had karaoke;s & movie marathons.
I ended up reaching home super duper late.
i guess , that is why im feeling sick right now =P
Thanks girlfriends for the fun girls night in(;
_
School ? as per normal. everything is always & forever the same.
_
hey people, sorry eh never reply your texts, yes yes prepaid low ! -.-"
_
youuuu, i dont know if it even effect you luh.
i dont know if you even care luh.
but i swear , imy.

Sunday ;D

2009-07-19T07:37:00.000-07:00

Since i've promised myself not to slacked on sunday , so i didnt !
i went to the library at 5 with adiy & atika .
i finnished my Eng , Geo & Ss assignments. phewwww.
and at about 7nish pm , Apul & jo joined us.
its been long since we all get to hang out a lil while ?(;
we hang out for a lil while behind the civic centre & went on separate ways after.
I took the bus with Jo. cheer up lil boy ! ;D
After that , i thought i needed a break , and so i followed my sista to the cyber place.
and now im here , Updating ! ^^
youuuuu ! probably youre unable to show that you meant yr words
but maybe you will soon.
but you know i love you like fcuk too right ? ^^
darn , i love the way things are right now.
except for the fact that we're unable to go meet up for some hang outs ?
heh . I'll promise you that you'll turn red all over. *winkkk !
p.s : are you tired ? cos you've been running thru my mind lately.

^^

2009-07-18T05:14:00.000-07:00

I slacked for the whole saturday & i know i have to kick my ass on sunday.
i have geo , chem , maths , eng & physics assignments !
Daaaamn.
i'll go library tommrw for sureeeee ! ^^

Happy birthdayy ! ^^

2009-07-18T04:43:00.000-07:00

heyyy ! ^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY ~
hope you'll have a great dayyy & lead a better future ahead(;
cheer up ayeee ? postive positive.
there are more poeple that could treat you better , for real.
so push your problems aside & have a great day tommorow kayyy ? ;D
~Chupachups[;